ok so I was doing better since my little rant but this morning my sister called and everything went downhill. Right now I am absolutely loathing the circle of life. My sister told me on the phone that yesterday my grandma was taken in to the hospital and is in pretty bad condition. She was confused didnt recognize one of her own daughters and didnt even know what day it was. Plus supposedly the whole house was a pigsty which is odd cuz my grandma is a complete neat freak she hates her house to be dirty. Oh and I was supposed to find all this out last night but my mother decided that she didnt need to tell me what was going on even though she knows I care about my grandma more than almost anything in my life. Another problem is that my older sister is my grandmas power of attorney and so now the rest of the family is trying to push her around and make her do what they want her too so i have to scrounge up all the money I have (which trust me isnt much) and fly out to Iowa to help her. I am so pissed off that my family is fighting over my grandma and her stuff like she's some piece of meat, its ridiculous. I also very worried because the doctors have been taking test all day on my grandma and we find out the results and everything tonight. God help me